Observation is the only thing I can do. There are too many questions , whys, whens, whos, wheres, hows.
When you take a drawing class, one of the first thing you are told is to forget what you think you see and to really look, fresh, like you would see a tree for example for the first time. Then you realize that the tree is not just green like you thought it was but it has lots of colors and shapes with the light playing on its leaves.
It is a challenge. Once I gave myself the goal of believing what I see. It came to a point recently of" what if I see something I don't like, or something scary? what if I see faces with elongated heads and I can't explain it?, what if...?"
I can only look, feel, observe, name what comes to me.
This, to me, is a delicate view of a horse or other, turning its head to peck at the fur in its neck. Beautiful.